// YOU ARE MINE*

[LUKA SAWYER COLE]

It was way too early to be up in Luka's opinion. There was no reason for any human being to be up before eleven on any given day and yet it was ten in the morning and here Luka was... awake... in the damn studio by himself. This was not supposed to be the case. This studio was supposed to be filled with staff and the guys from his band and a vocalist from another band that they asked to come in and do a collaboration with but there was no one in sight. Needless to say, the twenty three year old was highly annoyed and a little pissed off. Yet, thankfully, the cup of coffee in his hand was hitting his stomach just right and it easily became the only thing that kept him from going over the edge at the moment. He could already tell this wasn't going to be a good day, not only because everyone was fucking late but also because his band refused to tell him just who was coming in for them to work with. Either the boys didn't know either or they were keeping it a secret, knowing that he wouldn't like the response and that bothered him. With his feet propped up on the console, Luka leaned back a bit in the oversized executive leather chair and closed his eyes with one hand wrapped tightly around a paper cup and his other hand resting gently on his stomach. The silence was welcoming and he could feel himself nodding off, only getting a couple hours of sleep the night before due to staying up all night with his fiance. However, just as he began to drift off, he felt his cell phone vibrate violently in his pocket. Groaning, he slid the phone out of his pocket and squinted against the brightness of the screen. Be there in 15. Luka rolled his eyes, sighing loudly before tossing his cell phone onto the edge of the sound board. Leave it up to his band to be late.

Luka sipped mindlessly on his coffee, staring off into space until he finished it and then got up out of the chair to dispose of it into the small trash can near the door of the recording studio. Just as he turned around to go back to his seat, he heard the soft sound of footsteps walking down the short hallway towards the studio. Yet he didn't pay them any mind and continued his approach, finally dropping back down into the chair just as the door opened. He threw a glance over to the individual that walked in and he automatically felt his heart drop into the very pit of his stomach, burning in his stomach acid. "You? What the hell are you doing here?" he quickly asked, his calm and collected demeanor suddenly of a man who was panicking. Suddenly, his lightbulb came on, putting two and two together and he quickly sunk lower in the chair. Luka ran a hand over his face, taking a deep breath in as he ran his hand into his hair before looking back up into Rodney's handsome face. "The vocalist... you're working with us today..." he murmured offhandedly to himself, his stoic features turning slightly upwards into a smirk. "Well, this is going to be an interesting day, indeed."

Luka and Rodney didn't have your typical relationship; friendship or otherwise. Once looking at the younger man as a brother, things had quickly changed when Luka surprisingly made out with him when he was only twelve. It was a moment he refused to talk about, silently telling himself that it was a moment of weakness caused by puberty driven hormones. As much as he had tried to forget about that moment, it only reared its ugly head every time Luka laid eyes on him and that was exactly the only thing he could think about as Rodney stood in front of him now, making him slightly uncomfortable. He averted Rodney's gaze, staring ahead at his cellphone as if willing it to make a noise or something so he had something to do to keep from acknowledging Rodney. But it didn't move... not at all and Luka was forced to look back at Rodney so he didn't look like an asshole. Placing one hand behind his head, he placed the other one on his crotch, letting his brown eyes fall back on Rodney. "So... tell me... just how exactly did they get you to agree to this? Or did they somehow forget to mention that I was in the band with them?" As far as he knew, Rodney wouldn't have agreed to do anything with Luka being involved, given the fact that Luka continuously denied his feelings for Rodney, even after sharing a bed with the boy with the both of them being almost completely naked. Visions of a barely clothed Rodney filled his head and he silently kicked himself in the ass, pissed at himself that he had just made himself horny thinking about Rodney and not Elizabeth. You're not gay, you fucker. What the hell are you doing? Luka was in complete denial.

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[RODNEY ALEXANDER BOURNE]

THERE HE STUMBLES, FALLING TO HIS KNEES
I T H I N K H E T R I P P E D O N R E A L I T Y
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Everyday was not a good day for Rodney Bourne, and as if he was even in the mood to be bothered right now The young man flashed a smirk and a smile to everyone, putting on a facade in hopes that this studio time would go by quickly. He knew what he was in store for, and he was ready for it, he loved the track, and absolutely adored everything there was about the band that had grown to be good friends with. But with one exception, the drummer, Luka. A guy Rodney knew all too well, and had dealt with far too much, and for far too long. The two men had shared their good times, and shared loads of memories that were both appeasing and pretty ugly. And while lately they hadn't really been on either good or bad terms, Rodney just didn't want to be bothered with the troublesome man, who let's not forget was engaged.

Rodney had feelings for the man, he wasn't going to lie, but trying to love, and be with a closeted man who was deeply in denial about his sexuality was not easy. It was bad enough that he had to work extra hard to keep his career afloat being that he was openly gay, and to get caught up in such drama with Luka would potentially do him more harm than good.

So walking up the small flight of stairs near the elevator Rodney made his way to the studio room, and he breathed lightly taking a good note to how quiet things were. Coming up on the door Rod walked inside and he sighed before rolling his eyes at the sight of Luka. This was just so convenient, and so off putting that Rodney even thought about turning around and coming back in fifteen minutes, but by then the two men had already caught one another's eyes.

Hearing the words come from Luka's mouth in the panicky way that they did made Rodney just look and him and scowl. The tan skinned boy didn't say a word and just looked before letting Luka answer his own question about Rodney's presence . Moving to the other side of the room and looking around lightly and scanning things Rodney removes his jacket and stripped from his layers as he was hot. Now standing there in only skinny jeans and a tank top the twenty one year old glanced back over at Luka and he shook his head with a light chuckle.

"Luka, have you ever stopped to think that sometimes... I'm not thinking about you? I like this band, and it doesn't matter if you're in it or not. I make music, you do your part and I'll do mines. Besides, I'm done with avoiding you...for now. It's not that serious to me anymore." Rodney said looking at him with a calm but slight annoyed look on his face.

Rodney and Luka were awkward, and Rod was tired of playing hide and seek with the older man. He was engaged and that was that, and while Rod knew otherwise Luk was straight. Rodney could go on and on about how he knew Lukas was gay, but today he just didn't have the energy, and he just wanted to get his work done, because being around Luka wasn't hard to deal with but it made Rodney comfortable around him... comfortable around a guy who had so many times, played his face, and made him look like a dumb ass.

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NOTES :: Sorry if it Sucks! xD Will Get Better
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[LUKA SAWYER COLE]

Luka really hadn't been paying attention to the way Rodney reacted to what he has just said. He was so lost in his thoughts about how he was going to make it through the day that Rodney's scowl was completely unnoticed. Yet when the boy moved, Luka's eyes quickly glued to him, taking in the way he walked down to just staring at his ass. That was until Rodney pulled off some of his clothing causing Luka to stop for a minute and just stare at him. It was clear to see that Luka wanted him at the moment, if it wasn't because he was staring at Rodney it was definitely the hungry glint that was in his eyes. A man starved of the affection that he truly wanted and had been denied of for months. It was cruel really, being able to break Rodney's wall down only to have him build it all back up as soon as Luka put the ring on Elizabeth's finger. He knew Rodney was in the right. He knew that the boy deserved more than being downgraded to a sloppy side dish but that would have meant that Luka would need to admit that he actually felt something for Rodney... that he wasn't as straight as he had thought himself to be. Luka couldn't break down far enough to admit something like that, at least for right now. Yet, the images playing on a never ending reel in his head were anything but straight thoughts and Luka suddenly felt himself getting excited against the hand that was laid ever so gently on his crotch.

Clearing his throat, Luka sat up in the chair and adjusted himself as Rodney began to speak. He didn't know how he should have felt after what he had said but he was slightly uncomfortable. Standing, he walked over to him, nibbling at his bottom lip before throwing a glance over his shoulder at the door. "Why were you even fucking avoiding me in the first place? I didn't do shit to you, Rod," he murmured, sliding his hands into his pockets and stepping away. Luka walked over to the sound board, letting his fingers gently glide over all the knobs and dials, clearly in thought. All things sexual turned over into emotional thoughts making Luka insanely conflicted as a part of him kept telling him to open up to Rodney while the other part of him felt horrible for what he was subconsciously doing to his fiance. Whenever Rodney wasn't around, Luka was insanely happy with Elizabeth and then he steps into the picture and everything goes to shit. He hated himself for this and yet he was so glad that Rodney couldn't hear any of the bullshit that happened in his head when he was around. Then again, Luka was sure that Rodney already had some idea of it since he kept trying to get it out of Luka that Luka indeed cared about him.

Sighing, Luka looked back up at Rodney, half hoping that he would come over and wrap his arms around him while knowing that it wasn't going to happen. That only frustrated Luka more. "Fuck it," he grumbled to himself in a whisper before barging into the studio, aggressively pushing the door wide and letting it close behind him with a short snap. His drum kit was still set up from the night before and Luka didn't think he had ever been so grateful for that, sitting down behind the kit and picking up his sticks in one fluid motion. He gently hit the high hat, almost as if he was testing out the waters before he began pounding out an aggressive beat, his feet beating on a double bass pedal with all of the passion in the world flowing out of him. He didn't even know what he was playing, the beat not having a rhyme or reason as he was simply playing from his heart. Just as quickly as the up-tempo drum line had started, it faded into a mellow almost depressing sounding tune with Luka behind the kit, his eyes closed. Then he opened them, not to look down at his drum kit but only to stare straight ahead through the glass window and into the sound room at Rodney, his sorrowful brown eyes never leaving the boy as if Rodney would disappear if he even looked away for a second.

Meanwhile, in the sound room, his phone buzzed to life on the edge of the sound board, receiving a text that read "i love you" from Elizabeth. A text message that would clearly have to be put on hold since the only person he had eyes for that the moment looked nothing like the woman he shared a bed with. Not knowing that his phone was going off, Luka continued to sit there, pounding away on the kit and building up a sweat as he got lost in the moment.

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[RODNEY ALEXANDER BOURNE]

THERE HE STUMBLES, FALLING TO HIS KNEES
I T H I N K H E T R I P P E D O N R E A L I T Y
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Standing in the sound room and watching Luka as he moved around, Rodney held a light frown on his face, and he sighed as he could see the obvious confusion on his face. It was a hard situation, it was tough, and Rod knew what the man was going through. A part of Rodney wanted to give him sympathy, but at the same time... all the problems Luka had in his life were all problems he inflicted upon himself. Rod was not going to stand by and watch himself get hurt countless times over and over again. his lifestyle was far too sensitive for him to get thrown of hiss game. Chart topping songs, an anticipated second album soon to be hitting the shelves, and now working on his third, Love was a thing that could either make or break Rodney. he wasn't willing to figure out his chances... not yet, especially with someone who'd already had their feet planted in somewhat of a good relationship, and didn't know what they wanted in life.

Hearing the question that Luka threw his way Rodney had quite a number of answers to why he chose to avoid the man. Slight humiliation to the fact that the young boy had once taken a chance to allow himself to fall for Luka and having it all shoved back in his face, that was one things, but more so the worst thing he'd done.... on more than one occasion. Rod shook his head and looked at Luka stand there and he turned around taking his eyes off him, and going over to his bag to grab his notebook, and that's when he heard the mumbled profanity, and the loud slamming of the door when he went barging into the recording room to play the drums. Rod jumped and he growled honestly didn't know what to think. But he knew that he wasn't going to keep acting like nothing had happened between them. Like everything was just a'okay, because it wasn't. What Luka was asking for was something Rodney was just not willing to give. Not while he was in the process of getting married, married as in til death do they part. Rodney was no dummy, and anyone who was in their right mind would never put themselves in the middle of such a profane and twisted situation.

Though there was no way that Rodney could be so one sided about any of this was well. He had feelings for Luka, and was crazy about the man when he was just a little boy. But leaving it in secret there was no point in displaying it when the other end would do nothing but deny it, and make you look like a dumb ass. Rodney's heart was not a poker table and he was not going to keep throwing himself at Luka when the man was clearly not ready for all that he had to give. So taking his feelings freezing them, and with no intentions to thaw them out, Rodney put himself in a place where he could live with Luka and keep the ties they had to a minimum, though he knew that Luk wanted sooo much more. He wanted something that he couldn't handle, not now anyway.

Looking through the glass gazing back into the bedroom brown eyes that Luka sent to him, Rodney's ever so loving yet, ever so evil eyes looked back and was filled with conflict as well. It was plain to see that Rodney wanted Luka, wanted his anger, wanted his violence, wanted his loves, and all that he came with. But, he didn't want to be a secret, as a Gay Right's activist, and a strong member of the LGBT community, pursuing a relationship with Luka would look blasphemous, making it seem okay to be in a relationship with a person that seemingly disagreed with homosexuality, and at times spoke badly of it when it was put on him. Rod knew that wasn't the true case but being in a industry, no one cared about intentions, they only cared about what was put out there, and what Luka was giving publicly was a look that said. " I AM NOT A FAGGOT, AND I WILL NEVER BE ONE." While in the meanwhile... he was indeed falling deeply for another man, a man he couldn't keep his eyes off of.

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TAGS :: Luka <3
OUTFIT :: Ripped Skinnies and a Black Tank Top
NOTES :: O.o CRAZY
CREDZ :: Song is "Perfect Day" by Collective Soul (ftw?). This template was made by the uh-may-zing (just kidding) xreebear of caution two-point-oh. Please don't steal and or use without credit (so.. steal).

[LUKA SAWYER COLE]

Nothing ever compared to the drums. Playing since he was in elementary school, Luka lived for the drums on most days. He didn't play games when it came to music and he was hardly ever distracted... not even by Elizabeth. So why was he currently sitting there, staring down Rodney while he fluidly played the drums, not really paying attention to them. What made this boy so important that he just couldn't look away? Luka couldn't help but ask that of himself repeatedly, only for a nagging thought at the back of his head to keep pointing out that he knew why. Luka fucking loved Rodney and he knew that ever since he was in ninth grade but it was a feeling and an emotion he suppressed for so long, telling himself there was no possible way he was into dicks. That couldn't fucking possibly be right. How could he, Luka Cole, be into guys? And yet he was... as he clearly admitted to both himself and Rodney when he had stripped down and delved into such an intimate moment with the boy. At that moment, Luka couldn't think of anything else than how amazing it felt to have Rodney that close to him, enjoying feeling his warm body pressed so closely up against his in the throws of passion. Just thinking about it made his throat go dry and after a few moments staring into Rodney's eyes through the glass window, Luka's drumming faded out into silence, setting the drumsticks down while he continued to stare into his eyes.

Luka fucking had enough. Just staring at him was making him physically sick, his stomach violently flipping over as he thought to himself that he would never be able to touch Rodney again and then wanting to punch himself for even thinking such a thing. However, after a minute or so of internal conflict, Luka gave up the fight of picking his reputation over what his heart wanted. Standing up, Luka walked around the drum kit and opened the door before stepping into the room. Without warning, he approached Rodney and casually backed him up against the sound board, placing his hands on the boy's slender hips while his brown eyes locked with Rodney's. He wanted to just be able to open his mouth and tell him that he loved him; tell him that all he wanted was him but Luka was so far in denial that the words got stuck in his throat, making it quite difficult to breathe. Instead, Luka slid his hands slowly around Rodney's waist, wrapping his arms around him before leaning in and capturing Rodney's lips as he pulled Rodney's frame closer to his. Then, once he knew that Rodney wasn't going to pull away, Luka deepened the kiss, attacking Rodney's lips as if he was starved of human affection for decades. At that moment, Luka couldn't have cared less who stepped in and saw them because right then... that was the most alive Luka had felt ever since sleeping with and right then, Luka truly knew what it felt like to be happy.

Eventually Luka stopped, coming up for air with a small smile on his face while his eyes scanned Rodney's face before finally stopping at his eyes. "I... I need you," he stammered, taking a deep breath before continuing. "Whatever I did, I want to make it up to you. I'm sorry... please, Rodney," he whispered, raising a hand from the boy's waist and slowly pulling up his tank top as the fabric got caught on his pinkie finger and showing off the boy's toned stomach before the tank top fell back into place. Luka remembered oh so well just how vocal Rodney got when having sex and he still could hear in his mind Rodney moaning his name. That only made things worse and upon feeling his growing excitement, Luka let his head fall gently onto Rodney's chest as he sunk his fingers a little deeper into the boy's hips. Moments later, with an exhausted look, Luka captured Rodney's lips once more. This time licking his tongue along Rodney's bottom lip in a teasing manner as he began to harden, his crotch pressed way too closely to Rodney's. Luckily for him, there was no way they were going to get caught, as his band had just sent both of them a text message saying they had to cancel the studio session due to being way too late. Either way, Luka wasn't prepared to stop.

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[RODNEY ALEXANDER BOURNE]

THERE HE STUMBLES, FALLING TO HIS KNEES
I T H I N K H E T R I P P E D O N R E A L I T Y
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There was nothing more passionate than what Rodney was feeling deep within him. There was nothing more hurt than Rodney was and while he felt all these things he could do nothing but let his heart drop to the bottom of his chest and passionately kiss Luka back, his lips wrapping around the older male's in a synchronized dance that was so natural it would have been beautiful to watch. Rodney felt his hands wrap around Luka and he held onto his back as he kissed him and breathed in every breath the older man let out. Lightly moaning as he felt the excitement growing in Luka's pants Rodney so badly wanted to just rip his shirt off and ravage him right there on the floor, he wanted to make love to the man he had so long been involved with. But he didn't, he stayed still, rubbing Luka's back and kissing him, but not even daring to go nearly as far as he wanted. Then that's when the shock hit him when he felt the fresh air re-enter his lungs and he watched as Luka broke the kiss, leaving Rodney open and far ready to just go with him.

Hearing the gentle words pierce his ears, Rodney so badly felt how genuine they were, and he felt his heart skip and jump bumping in his tight chest as he listened to Luka's statement. Luka wanted Rodney, and wanted him this badly that he admitted to it, and even offered to make things right. Rodney knew he wanted to give the man another chance and he was an inch away from doing so, but Rodney had a gut feeling that all of this would have been terribly wrong. yes he loved Luka, but he was still engaged, and he was till technically in a serious relationship, one that Rodney was not going to be put on Perez Hilton for home wrecking. He couldn't do that and while he knew he all the power in his hands to snatch Luka away from the woman he went home to every night, Rodney allowed Luka to suffer, allowed him to live his life by his choices, therefore he could never ever once blame anyone for anything that happened to him. his life;s direction was his own, and if the man so badly wanted Rodney like he said he did, it was obvious what he had to do to receive him.

Looking into Luka's eyes and feeling his hands tighten on his wait Rodney bit his lip and felt Luke come closer his boner pressing against Rod in a heated manner. Licking Luka's lips and kissing him again Rodney began to get butterflied and weak at the knees. He wanted to make love to this man, and he so badly wanted to let him know that Elizabeth was not the one for him. But Rodney didn't he composed himself so deeply that after realizing what was going on Rodney broke the kiss and his grip on Luka loosened. Rodney couldn't do this again he could re-do being hurt again, he wasn't. So lightly pushing Luka back a bit Rodney felt stones in his heart as his chest began getting heavy with sadness and pure emotions. Looking into the man's eyes Rodney felt the urge to just strip right then and there but before you know it a loud buzzing went off and in reaction thinking it was his phone Rodney grabbed Luk's phone off the sound board and read the text that popped up in his face.

"Baby, what are you doing? I miss you text me back when you get this. I Love you.

Frozen and yet again let down Rodney felt anger flush to his cheeks as he read what the words said and he looked at Luka, just stared at him before tears began swelling into Rodney's eyes. the young boy walked to the other side of the room and hid his face not wanting Luka to see his crystal tears, and not wanting him to touch him at the moment.

"You need me Luka? Or, do you want me?" Rodney questioned, his smooth voice rigid with the obvious anger that was boiling over in him. he had felt soo utterly plyed and he knew it wasn't really Luka's fault but just teh simple reminder of him being with another person kind of slapped him the face. Slapped him when he was feeling vulnerable, feeling ready to forgive Luka again and actually invite him back into his life as a man he truly loved. But that gate slammed shut, again and looking at the text again Rodney shook his head and sighed trying to control his attitude. As of now the young man was far to saddened to argue, but in him was so much turmoil that he needed to get out, and if Luka got to close to him.... it would release, because at moment's like this, Luka's touch felt like stabs to the ribs, and his kiss felt like he was being suffocated. Everything he did hurt now, simply because anything Luka did to Rodney now was considered cheating, for the older man was a fiancee, taken, forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden, and a love that Rodney absolutely wanted but could not have ... not while he was engaged anyways.

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[LUKA SAWYER COLE]

Luka let out a groan of frustration, feeling himself grow as Rodney caressed him and kissed him back. He had almost forgotten how good it felt to be in Rodney's arms that being this close to him was highly overwhelming. All of this made him silently think to himself as to why he was even with Elizabeth. Yes, he loved her. Yes, she pleased him at all times but there was something always missing... something that just clicked whenever he was with Rodney. Whenever he stopped to think of that, Luka couldn't help but automatically feel on edge. He knew what this all meant. He knew he felt a lot more for Rodney that he had ever openly said but there was still something holding him back from the twenty-one year old. There was still something that kept him with Elizabeth and Luka was starting to narrow it down as to him not being able to cope with the idea that he indeed may just be gay. It was a topic that his parents kept drilling into his head ever since he was a kid. Boys were supposed to be like this... girls were supposed to be like that and boys and girls were supposed to love one another and have families. Then when his brother came out, everything his parents taught them went up in flames, causing his parents to question where they went wrong. Luka had to stand back and watch as his parents slowly adjusted to his brother's lifestyle, all the while witnessing the abuse that his brother had to go through on a daily basis from fellow classmates. That was the worst time of his life and even though he was always there to protect his brother, he could still witness the emotional scars that were left behind on him. Luka didn't want to have to go through that again... he didn't want to have to put his brother through that again or even his band or Liz. Yet, he honestly didn't know how much longer he could stand back and deny himself of someone that clearly owned his heart.

This whole moment was just so intense and he felt his heart strumming against his rib cage as his hormones started to get out of control, moving his body even closer to Rodney, wanting all of him right then and there. However, the moment was short lived and before he knew it, Luka felt Rodney let go of him and push him backwards. Luka couldn't break the gaze between him and Rodney, breathing deeply as he waited for him to make a move only for his cell phone to vibrate loudly. Seeing Rodney move, Luka followed suit in attempts to get to the phone before him but the boy was too fast. Not knowing what to do or say, he stopped there and just watched Rodney until the boy's angelic features turned to sadness and his eyes began to water. Luka knew that if he didn't act quickly Rodney was going to leave him and he just couldn't even comprehend that at the moment. So he moved, quickly taking steps towards him and reaching out towards him when Rodney's voice suddenly echoed around the studio. Luka paused, looking down at his feet and then back up the back of his head before slowly opening his mouth. "Baby, I need you and I want you," he replied as he tightly wrapped his arms around the boy's waist from behind. Luka grabbed the phone out of his hand and tossed it back onto the sound board, showing that he didn't give two shits about whoever texted him. Right now, the only person that was on his mind was the boy that was trying so desperately to avoid him and pull away from him at the moment. Nuzzling into his neck, he tightened his grip on Rodney, before whispering in his ear. "Don't do this to me, Rodney. Please. Don't leave me." At that moment Luka would have done anything just to keep him there, the anxiety building up of Rodney possibly walking away from him. It was then that Luka pressed his lips to the back of the boy's neck; the exact same way he used to when they slept together and Luka had to wake him up. Then he whispered. Just three simple words that he knew Rodney had been waiting to hear for a while now. "I love you." And suddenly, a huge weight was lifted off of his shoulders and he felt free while he continued to stand there and cling to the only person that he had ever truly loved in every way possible, refusing to let go.

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TEMPLATE © THROUGH THE TREES OF CAUTION

[RODNEY ALEXANDER BOURNE]

THERE HE STUMBLES, FALLING TO HIS KNEES
I T H I N K H E T R I P P E D O N R E A L I T Y
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It took everything in Rodney to keep himself from breaking down right then and there. It hurt to see Luka this way and while Rodney wanted to bend to his needs, and truly show him all the love that was being hidden deep inside, he couldn't. Because, there was no warranty with Luka and Rodney's relationship, nothing set in stone and a lot of complications that Rodney knew no way to get around. He was mind crazy over the man, and it had been that way ever since he was 12. Rooting for him in high school talent shows, getting awkwardly bothered when ever he'd get in trouble , Rodney was Luka's number one fan as a kid, but now... how things have changed.

Waking up to the chilling reality that Luka was engaged and now of all times he chose to openly show his feeling both made Rodney melt, and harden just as fast, because there was no possible way that Rodney was going to pursue a relationship with a person who was supposedly devoted to another. That wasn't right, and while the real Rodney wouldn't have cared much... this was Luka, and if the man wasn't his entirely than there was no need for him to have him at all. Because for starters the two men had obviously loved one another and if Luka couldn't pull up the strength to leave his girl than, all his feelings for Rodney went in vain. They meant nothing, and they were nothing but air to Rodney. Physical attractions where great to have, and yes they meant a lot, Rod had already known Luk to be a sexual person but now the twenty-one year old was looking for something different, looking for a connection, one that Luka wasn't afraid to hide.

Love was something that you shared with the world, not something that you took and hid inside of a box. Rodney didn't want to take his now openly life and walk around hiding from camera's just to save Luka's, that wasn't fair. Especially with the fact that he was sharing his lover with some woman he barely even knew. So Rod knew not what to do at the moment, and following his gut instincts as to what his heart wanted to do; Rod wrapped his arms around Luka's muscular frame and a restricted tear that Rod had long been trying to keep from falling, cam trickling down his cheek, and he listened to the word coming from the older man's mouth.

Rod breathed in Luka's scent and the feeling of having him her right now was remarkable, but there was just some things that could not happen with them, not now, and not under the crazy circumstances that they both were in. Everything you Love isn't everything you need, and thinking this, Rodney knew that what he had to do would ultimately crush both his heart, and the man's who so tightly held onto Rodney. It was sad, and it was really something Rodney did not want to do, but it was something that he had to do so that Luka could see how things had changed. They were no longer little kids, and Rodney was longer easily persuaded, he had a new life, and with so little time on his hands to begin with, any serious relationship he dared become involved with required commitment, and no games.

So, kissing Luka's neck and letting the tears from his eyes create dark wet spots on Luk's shoulder, Rodney silently released a breath of air and with both the anger and depression inside of him gently, but forcefully pulled away from Luka, and the younger male looked into his eyes.

"I'm so sorry Luka. I Love You too, but ... if you really love me, you know what you have to do," the green eyed male said as he began to tear up again.

Rodney sighed and tossed Luka his phone with the open message up exposing the sweet talk Elizabeth had sent to Luka. Then without further hesitation Rodney began to gather his things and headed for the door. Looking back at Luk, Rodney felt his heart fly behind him and land in the older man's hands, cause despite all that was going on it was true... Luka was a good person but in a bad situation, and man of good intentions, but just so happened to screw everything up for himself. Though that's not to say he couldn't fix those things. The hardest things to do in life where always the easiest things to do, but as humans we cared too much... too much to make ourselves happy, and forget what anyone else had to say. That was Luka, and at this point he had Rodney in the palm of his hand ... but with every passing minute he was with Elizabeth, the older man was clenching his fist, crushing the image of Rodney in his life... and crushing the very source of his ture happiness, and love.

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WORDS :: ??
TAGS :: Luka <3
OUTFIT :: Ripped Skinnies and a Black Tank Top
NOTES :: O M G <3 LoL
CREDZ :: Song is "Perfect Day" by Collective Soul (ftw?). This template was made by the uh-may-zing (just kidding) xreebear of caution two-point-oh. Please don't steal and or use without credit (so.. steal).